"Walk in someone elses shoes..." blah blah cliche cliche blah

Yes i am addressing this topic. Perhaps I am tackling it because just today I stopped in the middle of the hall, and started talking to a someone i don't normally chat with and within two seconds of our greeting i dived into this deep topic.  I think she was a bit taken aback by my offhand conversation but I think I just needed to reason this out outloud, and it would have been weird if i started talking to my self.

So right in the middle of a crowded hallway with people rushing by with an intense desire to get to class and to gobble some food down all around us I stopped and had an intellectual conversation( i love having these!) with my friend, Amelia. It didn't last very long, about two minutes, but that's all that was necessary.

You could say it was an Ah ha! moment or one of those moments when you have an oddly hovering light bulb over your head that clicks on.  It would have been appropiate for me to shout "Eureka!" (Don't tell anyone but I have secretly wanted to say this ever since i watched these science Eureka videos in elementary, oh the affect elementary has on our lives...)  This is probably how the person that made that cliched phrase felt when he thought it up. 

Not everyone can actually begin to understand this trite phrase until their remove the selfish veil that shrouds their vision.  And everyone has it.  Everyone is so absorbed in their own lives and struggles that they hardly ever think about someone else's needs. Well at least this is how i basically am.  I just sit their and pity my self and feel so sorry about my lives struggles.

Well today again I was contemplating the deep dark depths of my heart and my inner demons, when I realized, EVERYONE DOES THIS! They think about whatever is going on in their lives.  And this is where the epiphany came, everyone has struggles but they don't wear them on their sleeve, so i can't see what they are. Although there are select few people i have encountered that actually do shout out their problems in order to gain sympathy, but that's a subject for a different time.  This is where I realized that everyone has huge problems and then I realized I want to know truly what others have gone through.  What parts of their lives are they keeping hidden down in a cage because they don't want to face them?

What have they gone through to make them the way that they are?  If they are goth, why? If they are so freakin' happy all the time, why are they that way?

Its so interesting, I thought to myself.  If I have gone through this and this and this, what have they been through? I can't say that I have had a harder life than the person sitting right next to me, no matter how they might seem.  I shouldn't even compare my life to others because really why does it matter?

Its not like there is some competition to see who has the crappier life, and if their is, that is one competition I hope to lose.  So that kind of bugs me and at the same time it doesn't when people are like "You don't know what I've been through." Really it depends on how much its used.  If its used in moderation i think its okay.  Everyone wants a little sympathy.  But don't compare your life to mine and say that I've had it easier.

Because you can't know what I've been through, and I don't know what you've been through, so truce?  BUT, give me a little slack and sympathy I can't always hold it all together.

Wow I am just ramblings all over the place, I hope it makes some sort of sense.  I don't know half of want I mean and what I'm saying, I am just putting my fingers to the keyboard and letting them run. 
I need to not be so selfish, you need to not be so selfish, and we all need to be a bit more understanding of the other.  When someone needs some coddling, hold them to you shoulder and stroke their hair. 
It seems to be a roundabout way through stuff I already knew to get to the meaty thoughts here.  But this has also been a roundabout way to get to what I had intentionally got on the computer to discuss here.

Two words: counselors and office aids. WOW. These seems two of the least sympathetic species at school.  I'm going to explain to you my predicament.  Over the weekend i foolishly stayed up late(try 3am) with my rowdy siblings and brother-in-law in two consecutive nights.  With an abnormal sleep schedule already in the bag, i had to go to work on monday from 3-11:15.  Yes try waking up for school the next day and being in a good mood.  Actually try even waking up, its difficult. 

So going to school the next day was more than something I could comprehend, and staying there for the whole day was even more impossible. Laughable even. So seminary conveniently being fourth period I decided to skip.  I went into the building like a good little girl to figure out how to get checked out so it would be excused or whatever and the office person was so mean.

She was immediately assuming I was skipping because I "just didn't want to be there."  She said it would be okay if i was sick or something.  Well let me tell you something lady, I may not have been physically sick, but I was mentally unstable!!!!  She kept trying to guilt me into staying saying "Is it worth it?"  So i put up my defense which is normally silence.  I contemplated shouting to her my day yesterday, but decided against and with a few dramatic parting words, (I'm not going to explain to you my life) I swiftly left the building.